the famous picture. i love this picture. this was when i very first started going to school, august of '03. as you can

see, its before piercings, and my hair is my natural color here. sick...

here i am with my mickeymouse pigtails. this was like my signature style for the longest time dude.

it was so gay, i looked like a freak. but it really was pretty much all i could do with my hair at that time.

heres when it started growing out a little, i really liked it like this.

me in the famous shirt (its so old and worn now, but i still have it), and my black hair was STILL growing out.

my fauxhawk. yeah thats when i TRIED to dye my hair red and it turned like a black/auburn. stupid dude.

yeah this was me in the same year. only god knows why that chick millie is staring into my camera...

here i am again around the same time. i dyed my hair again and it FINALLY turned pretty red.

you fat cow...yeah thats me, eating string cheese...straight to my hips.

me with...wilting...liberty spikes...okay! moving right along!

yeah me with orange hair and my rave beads. that was back in the day when i had all those ear

piercings. i dont have all those anymore. i have guages now. zeroes, and an average second piercing. but thats besides the point...

thats me in my old room. it looks NOTHING like that now...i miss it alot but its all good.

thats the old meade, when he had a mohawk. he got tired of it though and he shaved it all off.

but he is in no way a skinhead. SKINHEAD = BAD.

me sleeping...???

 im all dressed up here. it was christmas eve.

my orange and pink mohawk.

my mouth.

i love this picture for some reason.

yeah i was at the mall with my boyfriend here. you just cant see him.

um...depression sets in quickly???

i dyed my hair black again after i got tired of it being bleached,

i really shouldnta done it though,

it really screwed

up my hair.

 this was the beginning of '04, right before i ran away and got sent to my placement. thats a dead frog on the wall behind me. kyle gave that to me.

this is me when i FIRST got sent to my placement. my parents sent me to this rehab/girls home thing for nine months back in january '04; i got out in october of that year. but when i first went there, this is what i looked like. i was HEAVILY into grunge at that time. i NEVER washed my hair, as you can probably tell. those are Fernando's old glasses, by the way.

heres me on my two-month visit from my placement. still grungy. my hair smelt like cooking oil all the time back then.

here i am when i got out of the placement in october. as you can see, my hair grew out and i got it highlighted...definitely NOT one of my favorites but i liked it at the time. im at target. i guess i dont know what to get...

this is me in my room, the way it is now. i got this badass pink-painted bulb so my room is really dim and has this PINK glow.

me looking in the mirror...i look kinda...high...

what is this an emo picture??? i dont know why im crying...oh yeah i remember.

i look okay here...this is before my bangs. i love that key on my neck, i never take it off.

yeah here i am in my daily attire...okay...

muah, muah, im confused!

me, kissing meade.

yep. me.

yeah this is me in new york with my dad.

me in new york trying on this kickass leather jacket (i ended up getting it). oh yeah and thats my favorite belt.

me and my dad taking our picture in the mirror. i look retarded.

okay, me with bangs. yay! i cut them in the middle of the night. i had been meaning to do it for such a long time, but im so damn lazy so i finally just got up one night and cut em.

me...i guess trying to hide from papparazzi...or so it would seem...those damn photographers...um...

talking.

me in my ghetto anti-flag fruit of the loom t-shirt. yeah.

me being retarded.

um...okay...yeah im obsessed with glasses.

me feeling all 1950's. i tried to dye my hair bright red (again) but once again it turned auburn or burgundy. its all faded by now though.

here i am looking all weird. i was skinny here though, at least.

here i am, i cut my bangs at an angle a while back and theyre still like that now but theyre longer now. but here the rest of my hair was still all the same length.

i was trying to do this moving, inspirational thing but it turned out kinda wrong...ish...

me all natural. weird...

me in my badass corset with the straps that hold my thigh highs up. buster keaton coming back...

me with my haircut now. its like all layery and shit. i love it. i dont think ive loved my hair as much as this since my mohawk. it looks awesome when its straight too.

me at laks house.